
As I am writing this blog, I am overcome with emotions. I wish I could share everything I have learned thus far in a profound and inquisitive way. However, I am settling for small moments of good. So, with snot running down my face, and tears in my eyes, join me in the small snippets from our time here:
Moment #1:
Although Jeff (aka lil Doddy/Jeffie/Jefe/Mama Jeff as I like to call him), sometimes has a tough exterior, I have found a few moments of beautiful cracks. These cracks serve as reminders that no matter how seemingly unrelatable or distant someone may appear, we are all human deep down. While I do not have time to go into ALL of the ways I have seen him as simply a human, I really enjoyed making dinner with him last night. We bonded over similar music tastes, moments of silence, our INCREDIBLE singing skills, and the mashing of tomatoes by hand. Although lil Doddy is an authority figure whom I deeply respect, he is also just a human. It is a good reminder that no matter how elevated or low we might perceive someone to be, deep down everyone is just a human doing their best. An amazing lesson to be thinking about while interacting with the people of Zambezi.
Moment #2:
After returning from the market today. I found a relatively quiet place to read our assignment, “Who is a Servant Leader” by Robert K. Greenleaf. As I lay on the ground and watched the ants crawl up small blades of grass, I was reminded of the Outdoor Leadership class I took with Dave Gilbert, more specifically, the exercise he had us do on our backpacking trip. We lay on the wet moss and imagined we were an ant, a mite, and then a bear. It symbolized how the challenges we all face may vary in size on a measurable scale, but rarely vary in effort put in. Everyone has their challenges where they are ants, and the ones where they are bears. These last few mornings have been hard for me, and honestly so has the last many months. Despite seemingly everything going well and harnessing my ability to not sweat the small stuff, I still have this underlying and looming feeling that something bad is going to happen, that I am not doing enough, and that I am going to let everyone down. These thoughts make simply getting out of bed feel like I am an ant trying to make it to the top of a redwood tree.
Moment #3:
Earlier today, two plumbers had been in our bathroom, tasked with replacing the cistern above our toilet bowl. Meanwhile, we sat around the dinner table as Sarah read aloud her blog and the comments. We heard a BANG. the priest rushed in, the plumbers left, and we suspiciously continued with our readings. After all the blog was read, Jeff burst out in laughter, informing the people in rooms #1 and #2, that we may no longer use our Jack-and-Jill style bathroom for #1 nor #2. Carly, Kathleen, Becca, Cate, Sean, and I ogled at the modern art project that had become of our bathroom: somehow, the plumbers had shattered the toilet bowl into dozens of pieces and very suspect water spread across the bathroom floor. We could only laugh. The priest had mopped up the water that leaked and Jeff pleaded with the plumbers to come back tomorrow. We desperately hope they do.

Moment #4:
This final moment happened about 2 hours ago now. Mama and Dad Doty, you should be so incredibly proud of your Loosh. Instead of writing this blog, I have been sitting on the outside patio of the convent crying over how I felt like everything I was writing was stupid, I had no direction for the blog, and then the bigger feelings of defeat and not being good enough took over. I had finally calmed myself down, but not gotten rid of the feelings when Loosh gently and kindly came up and asked me how I was doing. I immediately burst into tears again. Without saying a word, she placed her hand on my back and rubbed with a comforting sentiment of accompaniment. In that moment, she was not there to advise, help, or even to listen. She was just there with me. As we moved on from the nonverbal segment of our interaction, she went on the listen, empathize, and affirm saying, “Let it just be a moment. Let your writing just be okay.” So, although I wish I could share every last detail with you, here are just a few of the moments in which I have found meaning.
Harlow, happy late birthday. I love and miss you and your brother so so so much. I hope you had an amazing unicorn birthday party.
Dad, thank you for continuing to comment. I look forward to hearing your support and wisdom every morning. I love you so much. Although, sometimes it shows up blank, so maybe ask a young person to help you out :/
Kee, you should be so proud of your girls. You have raised such incredible women through leading by example.
Brytn, Addie, and Brai, I have been thinking a lot about you here. I feel incredibly guilty that I am missing all of your graduations, but I am so proud of each of you.
Heather, I am still making it through your book, but I think it came into my life at a perfect time. I am still learning from your wisdom of how to embrace good. (EVERYONE go buy Good is Amazing by Heather Campbell.)
Future 1103 roomies, living in this collective lifestyle has made me so excited for our future adventures in that big ol’ house. I hope you are all doing well.
Whoever asked if Sarah really killed a chicken, yes yes she did. And it was delicious.
Piper Krill
Class of ‘27


















