Faith Beyond the Walls

Walking down an unfamiliar road, two of the Katie’s and I follow anxiously behind Mrs. Phiri, our homestay mom, as she welcomes us into her family’s home. She shows us to the sitting room and invites us to take a seat on the couch while she prepares our dinner. Our eyes curiously wander the walls of the room as we try to take in as much as we can in this new environment. I notice several posters of Jesus coupled with bible verses and shift in my seat until my eyes lock on a particular poster that reads: “NO JESUS NO LIFE.” I try to hide the confusion on my face as I mentally prepare to answer yes to being a Catholic in order to avoid any awkward conversations. Surprisingly, our religious affiliations did not come up in during the meal, but the image of the poster stayed ingrained in my mind.

Upon coming to Zambia, I knew I would struggle and grow in many ways including the inevitable focus in Zambian culture: faith. Growing up, religion was not a big part of my life. Though we would attend mass most Sundays, religion was never a topic of discussion in our house. I went to a Catholic Jesuit high school, Seattle Prep, but my experience there did not push me to grow in my faith. If anything, the opposite. I was constantly behind and confused in my scripture classes because of my lack of understanding. Faith also has a big presence at Gonzaga, but even there I do not feel as though it is enhancing my faith life. In reality, the only mass I attend while at Gonzaga is the Spanish mass at St. Joseph’s, but that is purely to practice my Spanish learning,

Here in Zambezi I have been confronted face-to-face with my faith on a daily basis. We begin every meal with a prayer, attend Sunday mass, and casually talk about our faith in many conversations. In the computer class we teach, almost every student writes about their relationship with God and recite like a broken record, “I know I am good because I have the LORD.” I try to find the words to inquire and learn more about this strong religious mentality, but am overtaken by discomfort and fear that I won’t be able to understand.


Though I am curious about the faith of those around me, I have been discouraged from developing my faith in many ways over the past few weeks, especially our recent visit to an orphanage an hour outside of Zambezi. When we arrived at the orphanage, there was an eerie silence and absence of children. The director met us on the empty concrete patio and ushered us into a room where we sat and talked with him for a long time about the orphanage. We talked a lot about the founder and the history of the place, but surprisingly little about the orphans. Later, as we toured the property we began to see how the orphans played a small role in the organization. There were not enough rooms or beds to shelter the children, nor was there apparent evidence that too many children were actually living there, despite the director telling us that 100 children are currently being cared for. I began to be very frustrated with this place and began to question the leadership and direction behind the orphanage. Upon asking the director what his plans were for future improving and sustaining, he replied that they have faith in the Lord and they leave the future in God’s hands. I immediately cringed on the inside when I heard these words. Being someone who takes interest in and studies social structures, I was frustrated with the lack of planning behind this organization that I feared was being negligent in its care for the children. The other part of me that currently struggles with my faith became frustrated with the reliance on their faith to solve their problems. I have seen this pattern among many people I have encountered here, people who rely on their faith to get them from day to day. I have a constant internal battle because I feel an urge to enlighten these people that they need a plan outside of faith, but also feeling like I have no credibility to intervene because maybe I am the one who is unenlightened by the glory of God.

Another thing I struggle with is how central the church is in this community and the implications that come with it. Sitting in mass last Sunday, the priest began to tell a story of a woman who was struggling financially, which was causing other parts of her life to suffer. She turned to the church and was encouraged to give money to the church in return for God’s Grace. This had proven to work because down the road, the woman’s struggles seemed to take a turn for the better, emphasizing the miraculous ways that God’s Grace works through us when we donate to the church. This story was followed with the ritual assembly line to the donation box, where everyone is expected to come up and donate an amount of Kwacha to the church fund.

This structure of the church being the center of the community implies social expectations of their financial contribution. I question how the people in this community allow the church to have such a strong power, but I am beginning to understand that this is the only way they know. Since the colonial era and the presence of missionaries, this community has had very tight ties to a variety of Christian denominations, and religion has shaped Zambezi into the place it is today and has formed a rich culture.

Aside from the institutional aspect, this culture is spiritually alive and so full of life. Beyond the walls of the church and the bureaucracy that comes with it, the Zambians live a joyful life. You can’t walk down the street without running into a familiar face that turns into a drawn out conversation about how our days have been and how our families are doing. Though this is often lost in translation, the intentionality is always there and accompanied with a big smile. The constant laughing that fills these dusty streets, and the singing and dancing that fills the homes of this place is indescribable. I can’t help but think about how this communal energy would still be without the institutional churches as centerpieces of the community. I believe that the love and zeal found in many Zambians would be present with the same enthusiasm even in the absence of such a powerful church presence.


I strive to carry over this incredible spirituality into my own life, as I continue to grow in my faith. I have found peace in this struggle by allowing myself to experience the spiritual part of religion that allows true kinship in a community, rather than dwelling on the problems that arise in a church on an institutional level. Just as the Zambians have the historical context behind their faith, I recognize that my own background has helped shape my views and questions, but also wonder how my life would be different if I grew up in a faith-based community like Zambezi.

I am so grateful for the opportunity to experience a culture that is so alive. I am so grateful for the friendships I have made here and I am so grateful for the ways I have learned when pushed outside my comfort zone. I have been challenged to discover the role of faith in my life as I grow into a person who is more consciously spiritually alive.

Tunasakwilila mwane Zambezi,

Dakota Peterson

Class of 2018


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5 Responses to Faith Beyond the Walls

  1. Kim Wilcox says:


    Thank you for Shari such a heart-felt reflection. You all have truly seen God in the faces of the people in Zambezi and in their daily walk.

    As all of you prepare for the next part of your journey, please know that your candid reflections have touched many people, beyond what you will ever know. Dakota, may God bless you and your Zag Fam. Much love, Hayley’s mom

  2. Zag says:

    Thank you all for your beautiful reflections! I just did a binge reading of a LOT of them and it brought me back to when I went to Zambezi years ago.

    Continue to love and rely upon one another. Each year, even each group has a unique experience and the faces that you see right now are the ones who will truly “get you”. Embrace the challenges that are thrown at you and reflect upon those crazy highs and lows. Talk it out. Write it out. Take care of each other and yourself.

    “It is not selfish to refill your own cup
    so that you can pour into others
    it’s not just a luxury
    it is essential.”

    I believe in all of you and please know that your project is making a difference whether you see it or not.

    My heart is full. Thank you! Kisu Mwane and be safe out there.

  3. Tessa anton says:

    Dakota thank you for your beautiful reflection. What a realization to focus on community and kinship.

    Sophie, so much love for you. Little Lauren across the street last night when I was babysitting her asked when will Sophie babysit me? And then she asked many times, why did Sophie cut her hair? So better have a good answer, because “she wanted her hair shorter” was not answer enough 🙂 We all miss you and love you. Have an amazing rest of your travels in Zambia,

    Tess, Mom, and Dad

  4. Nancy Rudolf says:

    Dakota, I love reading your reflections about your time in Zambezi. You have developed and will continue to develop a strong sense of spirituality that is meaningful in your life. Your relationship with God will always be unique to you. I pray to God to continue to guide you in your life and help you find the best way that you can be instrumental to others. I think you’ve found a great connection with the people of the community of Zambezi and this thrills me to no end. I pray for you and your entire team that God will continue to open your hearts and share your wisdom and guidance with those around you. I can’t wait to see you and hear more in depth stories about your incredible experience in Zambia.
    Love you to pieces~ Mom

  5. Lowell [loh-uh l] Handy says:

    Dakota, thank you for your reflection. Everyone’s journey is uniquely personal. Your post continues and expands on the recurring theme of “community” in Zambia and how it makes them special in their own right. As others have noted, you are making a difference in all that you do. You might not see it today or, frankly, ever but you are. Not to get too crazy here but this is a quote I’ve carried around for many years.

    “During your life, everything you do and everyone you meet rubs off in some way. Some bit of everything you experience stays with everyone you’ve ever known, and nothing is lost. That’s what is eternal, these little specks of experience in a great, enormous river that has no end.” -Harriet Doerr

    As you end one part of your journey and move to the next, we will continue to pray for you all. To all of the Gonzaga In Zambezi team and your loved ones, I have enjoyed your posts more than you can know. Having gotten over the “freak out” of having my daughter literally on the other side of the planet, I’ve felt connected and involved and that has made a huge difference for me. I’ve been surprised (pleasantly) of the impact you’ve all had on me. Take care and enjoy!

    Ebby, can’t wait to see you soon and hear all about this amazing experience. I miss you and love you even more.

    -Lowell (Handy’s Dad)

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