Gonzaga-in-Zambezi

Last night the group had overnight home stays where we spent a night in groups of 2-4 with willing members of the Zambezi community. We (Hannah and Kylie) were lucky enough to be picked up by Daniel, an accountant of Zambezi, his wife Namakow, his three daughters ages 2 months to 6 years, and his two teenage cousins. Our fellow Zags, Matt and Chris, also joined us to stay with this very generous family. As the four of us followed Daniel home, we noticed that there was a gathering at one of the neighbor’s houses. Without a word, Daniel led us into the party and sat us down front and center. As it turns out we ended up in the middle of a Zambezi bridal party from a wedding that had happened earlier that morning. Since the bride and groom were from different tribes, this gathering was a celebration as well as a meeting to reconcile any divisions between the newly formed family. We were warmly welcomed with dancing, singing, as well as a beef snack consisting mostly of burnt cartilage and bone. Hannah, being the trooper of the group, started gnawing on her tough snack while eyeing Kylie with high concern. Kylie casually leaned over and told Hannah, “the Zambian men are staring and pointing, choke that meat stick down!” The Zambians noticed Hannah’s struggles and quickly brought her a new piece of meat, leaving her with two tasty treats. After we finished dancing, we followed Daniel out of the party and to his home. Little did the group know, Hannah found herself in quite a predicament with the hardened meat still in her hand on our way out of the gathering.  Not wanting to be rude, Hannah got the great idea to put the half eaten meat stick into her backpack…. Needless to say, there will be more to come on this brilliant decision later.

At Daniel’s house we all sat in his living room watching Zambian TV and news, feeling awkward but warmly welcomed. Daniel’s cousin Owen tried to teach us local Lunda and Luvale greetings, but our American brains struggled to remember them, along with our hosts’ names (Mapollo, Salome, Namakou, Enni). We found tricks to remember their names more easily, including reminders to trigger them such as Apollo 13, Salami meat, mama cow, and “any”body… As embarrassing as these tricks were, we found they were our last hope in light of our extreme exhaustion and continually expanding vocabularies.

Due to Daniel’s shyness, we were relieved when dinner was announced. The women, who had slaved over the meal, left the house to give Daniel and us space to eat at their table, again reflecting the generosity of the Zambian people. Hannah, once again the trooper of the group, lifted up the covering off the first dish, to find fish heads staring back at her. Not skipping a beat, Hannah looked up from the bowl of large decapitated fish and said, expressionless, “fish anyone?” After pouring warm water over our hands into a basin he held for us like royalty, Daniel taught us to eat Nshima (a maize staple in Zambia), Chinese cabbage, and the fish heads with our hands. Kylie cautiously asked Daniel with as much politeness as she could muster how to properly eat the fish like a true Zambian would. Daniel blankly replied, “We eat all of it”. So the group toughened up and ate scales, occasional ribs, and whatever else was thrown our way. Our American ignorance once again came into play as Daniel passed us peach juice for dessert to serve ourselves. He told us to dilute the juice with water: understatement of the year. Our 1:1 dilutions left us drinking flavored fruit syrup that burned of sweetness on the way down. After we choked down the first gulp, Daniel’s 6-year-old daughter Mapollo said quietly, while shaking her head, “you took too much juice”. Yes Mapollo. Yes we did. Mapollo-1: Ignorant us-0.

After dinner we joined Daniel and his cousin Owen in the living room for a group bible study. We read passages and shared what was in our hearts about God. It was our favorite part of our time in Zambezi yet. For the first time, we truly felt a deep meaningful connection with these strong, loving, resilient people. We realized how universal God’s love is and how not even 10,000 miles can change that. What a beautiful experience. With full hearts, stomachs, and bladders, we headed to bed.

The family of seven graciously offered up two of their three bedrooms for us. We reflected on how rare this kind of unrestricted generosity and selflessness really is. This description for the overnight stay would be incomplete without mentioning the return of the meat stick. As Hannah pulled out a blanket from her backpack, bugs scattered across the mattress. Kylie horrifically jumped back and exclaimed, “HANNAH, WHERE ARE THOSE COMING FROM?!!!” Without saying a word, Hannah reached into her bag and pulled out the meat stick, saying, “I sort of forgot that I put this meat thingy in my bag after the party”. Kylie was less than pleased as she restrained herself from screaming, “HANNAH WHAT IS THAT THING AND WHY IS THAT CARCASS IN YOUR BACKPACK?!”. Exchanging confused and exhausted looks, they both keeled over in laughter, nearly emptying their full bladders after the juice event. For at least an hour, Hannah and Kylie brainstormed how to get rid of the meat stick discretely. Considering that the family was eating dinner in the dining room outside of the bedroom, the options were slim and the ideas became quite creative.

After much deliberation, we came up with ideas ranging from disguising the meat as a little poop, hiding it in our chitenges as we casually walk towards the front door, throwing it out the barred windows, and even disguising it in a granola bar wrapper to get past the family, we were stumped. Trash bins were hard to come by and the family continually insisted on waiting on us hand and foot. They would surely ask what we needed the second we exited the room. The winning idea was simple yet flawless: put it back in the backpack, draw the drawstring tight, and place it in the far corner of the room (by far, we mean 3 feet away at most).

As we got ready to turn out the lights, Hannah realized the juice was not going to wait until morning; she would have to use the bathroom. As she approached the bathroom, she heard a stifled, defeated voice say “whhhaaaaatttt?????” and tinkering noises coming from the other side of the door. Recognizing Matt’s voice, Hannah opened the door, revealing a much-relieved Matt who had spent the previous several minutes trying to get out of the bathroom door which lacked a functioning handle form within. Ignorance seemed to be the theme of the night, because Hannah happily hopped into the bathroom behind Matt, closing the door behind her. Rookie mistake. Luckily the family came to her rescue, once again reinforcing that our American brains couldn’t quite wrap themselves around Zambia.

When Hannah returned form the bathroom, she found Kylie huddled in the fetal position in the corner of the bed, with a look of sheer horror on her face. Come to find out, the closing of the bathroom door behind her prompted two rabbit sized rats to scurry form their hiding place in the ceiling above the bedroom and crawl down the wall within a foot of Kylie’s stone frozen body. The bugs from earlier now seemed like a pleasant alternative to our new furry friends. Yes, friends. They would soon come out to play fro the remainder of the longest and funniest night of our lives.

The damn meat stick once again became an imminent concern, now that it was attracting rather large rodents. After giggling and brainstorming for another hour, the decision was of course a simple one. Use the malaria mosquito net to literally wrap our bodies like two sausages in a confined breakfast burrito. Hannah and Kylie got close on a whole new level. Thankful to have Matt’s headlamp, we were finally ready to turn out the lights. We snuggled into bed, but the comfort quickly disappeared, as we heard squeaking and scurrying form the above and below. Apparently Kylie was more traumatized than Hannah, because Hannah was snoring within 10 minutes. Hannah periodically awoke to check on Kylie who, yes, was STILL AWAKE.

At around midnight, we began to hear munching from below. The sounds of small teeth of slick REI fabric suggested that the rats had found the treat. The catch phrase of the night quickly became “it’s fine…. it’s fine” as we tried to reassure ourselves. Scared to even look at the damage that was being done, we waited until the despised roosters started to crow and the light began to seep in through the window. While straddling the couch and bed, Kylie finally gained the courage to check the backpack lying below. She threw sandals at it and used the strap to strategically check for any signs of rats. Needless to say, we owe REI one hell of a customer review; the backpack showed no signs of damage. Despite hearing claws sliding on slickery fabric, the infamous meat stick lay untouched inside.

We spent the remaining time until morning in our twin bed exploring the few contents of our backpacks to prepare ourselves for church with Daniel and his family: hand sanitizer, a hair tie (which snapped in half soon after), two pieces of gum, which made up for our terrible breath in lieu of a toothbrush, and travel Kleenex to blot up the grease coating our hair and bodies. Luckily, we recovered from a night of ignorance by finally coming up with a logical plan- we put the now terribly smelly stick back into the backpack and headed off to church.

Much Love and God Bless!

Kylie Edinger, class of 2014 & Hannah Van Dinter, class of 2016

xoxoxoxoxo

This is day three here in Zambezi, and I already feel like I have lived here for some time. Well, in some respects…. The roosters crowing outside at 4:30AM, showers resembling the polar bear swim, and all the foreign bugs and geckos still get under my skin. However, the days feel long due to no technology, and not having much concept of time. When I lie down the mosquito net draping over me, it’s hard to believe everything I did because in Africa, it’s just living. Time can feel so long, and yet I’m completely content in the present moment.

It has already been a whirlwind of emotions after a mere three days. The first night here, my journal read, “I’m not doing okay… I can’t do this, I want to go home.”

I had walked into my room for bed and found myself overwhelmed by bugs—I’m talking beetle-style, the revolting kind that you don’t want to get friendly with—crawling all over the room. I stood in the middle of this chaos tearing up, hugging myself in fetal standing position.

That night was challenging, and I am still trying to understand why it stressed me out. All I could think about was, “how the hell am I going to make it two weeks like this?” One of the strangest things is that I am inside a building, and yet there are creepy crawlies and no matter how many we kill they double in amount. This challenged me in a way that I was not expecting, but I wouldn’t take back this challenge because I know it’s going to change me in some way or another.

Aside from this traumatizing moment (okay, not totally traumatizing), Zambezi has been pretty amazing. Upon arrival, I have never felt so warm inside, or more welcomed. Before I even made it out of the bush plane, children ran up to me pulling me out of the plane. Instantly, I had 10 little hands grabbing my two little arms. Tears of contentment and joy began to well up at this overwhelming experience. I’ve never felt so full or right before.  In that moment, it was pure beauty. The love and excitement that was so contagious struck me like the ice cold shower I would take the next morning. I felt like I was coming home from a long vacation to the most loving and affectionate family of little kids. I wonder how I have lived my whole life without this outpouring of love from people I don’t even know. People are people here, not functionaries in others’ lives.

Every time I step outside there are little hands that grab mine. It feels as though I am famous when people stop and stare as I walk down the streets. I know that is not the case, but it’s the strangest sensation. It’s getting hard to give out all this love though. There are moments when I decide to stay inside the convent, just so that I can avoid the children. I love it, but sometimes I don’t want a child to hang onto me because that’s not real life. There will always be a kid who wants to play with me. It doesn’t mean that that’s what Zambezi is all about and what this experience has in store for me. I am striving to experience what REAL life is like here in Zambezi.

The older gentlemen all say “Welcome” as we “Chindeles” walk by. They say, “We want you to be at home here.” One woman said, “Hello sister, how are you doing today?” These people care about other people, and I feel so welcomed here by the community of people I’m afraid I won’t be able to know fully. Last night, cars would drive by, roll down their windows, and ask us how we were doing. Honestly, why is America not like this? Why do we put our heads down? Why are we not friendly and open to the concept of community? It’s so simple and makes me feel a part of something bigger and greater than myself. It makes me feel important and like life is about the relationships not about our next appointment. This community has already stolen my heart and filled it full of life and love.

Yesterday was the big One Nine, having a birthday in Africa was probably the greatest birthday to this day. That’s saying a lot because I have been on this planet now for 6,935 days. It was like I did nothing and yet everything today. I woke up and made breakfast, worked on my project, and ran down to the market to pick up supplies and recruit community members. Today was my first REAL taste of what Zambezi is—full of life. I wandered through the small tattered little alleyways looking for chitenge (African fabric) in the many small shops throughout the market. To top the night off I saw the horizon on fire, as the orange sun set right over the Zambezi river. Walking Mama Kawatu home, we saw the moon, which resembled what we know to be the harvest moon back home, and a night sky full of beautiful stars. I felt like I was in a movie it was so unreal.

This was the best way to spend my birthday because it was not about me, but rather about living life. Instead of having hopes of it being an extra special day, I just lived in the present moment of life and let it take me where it wanted. My Zamily ended up making my birthday incredibly special and I cannot thank my loving family here enough. Each person went around saying a few words about me. All I wanted to do was cry. I am so lucky to be surrounded by people who see life, and love courageously. I cannot remember another time when I felt this special. My international birthday was incredible due to my Zamily and the community and just feeling that there was something greater going on, but special time was taken to celebrate my life. I am blessed. So blessed.

I guess that’s all she wrote. My eyes have been opened and my heart enlarged as I live day by day in this beautiful place under the sun.

God bless you all, and thank you for your support and love as we continue on this journey together. I love each and every post, most definitely the highlight of our mornings.

Paxton Richardson, Class of 2016

After a flight in the small planes from Lusaka, we landed on the rough airstrip in Zambezi. As we land and pull off the runway, we are instantly surrounded by a crowd of children all eagerly waiting. As the door opens, they grabbed our hands with a happy grin, and everywhere I look I see a sea of young children surrounding the plane. Some of the children even wrestle one another to grasp our hands. Around us, I see dirt and dust filling the air and covering every surface. The children’s happiness seems to contradict the dirty and worn conditions of everything else around. As we walk towards the convent hand in hand with children, I question what happiness means to me.

-Charlie Rogers, Class of 2015

This picture is from lunch today:

We are in Lusaka, settling into bed after another full day of travel.  We arrived this afternoon from Dubai and were greeted by Fr. Dominic and Kelly Huckaby, two good friends.

Early tomorrow morning we fly into Zambezi, where we will begin our reflective blog postings.  We will write more soon.

We made it to Dubai after a comfortable 14 hour flight on Emirates. Two words, Hot towels.  We have hardly been treated better!

After checking into our hotel in Dubai, we set out to see the sights – the Burj Kahalfi, the Dubai Water fountain, the Dubai aquarium, and finally the warm waters of the Arabian Gulf.

We are flying out this morning and will be arriving in Lusaka, Zambia this afternoon.  More postings to come soon.

Dr. Joshua and Zags in Zambia

On Monday, May 5th we celebrated our “missioning” of the Zags in Zambia programs.  Lucy Baldwin, a Zambezi alumni from 2014, wrote the following reflection which we would like to share.

A year later, people still ask me how Africa was. This is the worst possible question. Because, how can you convey so much in one sentiment, in one response? It is the strangest thing in the world to describe because it is, all at once, something so incredible different and exciting and hard and wonderful, something you could describe for hours and hours and never get even close to how it felt, what it meant, how it was.

And yet, Zambia sometimes is like an emotion that I know everyone feels, or at least one that everyone longs to feel, when they are the most themselves. It is the dream that you wake up from, and then close your eyes, trying to get back into. It is the song that you have memorized, that you can’t stop singing. It is the book that says the words that perfectly describe you, that perfectly capture the world on its precious pages.

Do you remember that dream?

The one where you feel warm? Where there is light and heat and, although you cannot see all the faces clearly, you know that you are safe, warmed in the nest of the blankets, a peace spreading through you. And when you wake up and you see the cascade of white mosquito netting, encircling you, protecting you. Light is streaming and a rooster is calling and you wake up, still warm? It is early and you are in Africa and the sounds are soft and crashing and everything is strange and yet you feel like this is the way that you were supposed to wake up, since the day you born.

Each day felt like a pilgrimage, as you wrap yourself in a cloth and you eat a lot of bananas and you spend a lot of time walking. And everything, for a long time, feels very strange, and frightening. But, soon, slowly everything starts to feel exactly how it’s supposed to feel.

It’s like that dream where you are running, but now you can keep up. It’s like that dream where you are lost, but now you are lost in paradise. It’s like that dream when you have to cross a winding river, but now, finally, you can do it without drowning. It’s that dream where you jump off of a cliff, and you feel your stomach drop, and the wind whip you raw, but instead of plummeting you let out a whoop as loud and free as you have always wanted to feel.

Do you remember that song?

It’s the one that starts slow. The one that speeds up. It’s meant to be played the while you are running on the dirt roads, while you are washing dishes, while you are teaching, and while you are standing still, ringing your hands, with no idea of what to do or what to say or how to love. It’s the song that goes:

Tsamina mina, eh eh

Waka waka, eh eh

More and more, it’s the song that goes:

A men nu h’a que tu mwa tia gna gna’ he yaya ah

And thank goodness that it’s the some that goes,

Lean on me when you’re not strong
And I’ll be your friend, I’ll help you carry on

Sometimes it’s even the song that goes:

Hakuna Matata, What a wonderful phrase

Hakuna Matata, Ain’t no passing craze

But sometimes it’s the song that goes:

Do not let my fickle flesh go to waste, As it keeps my heart and soul in its place, And I will love with urgency but not with haste

It is the universality of our humanness. Its chorus is the sound of children still screaming, mothers still cooking, and fathers still working. And the sound of I, a person who had never been able to see any of this before, forced onto blissful eye level all of it, becoming a member among them, a person to sing in harmony, a person to even bust out a solo, and to clap my hands when they bust out their solos.

This is the coming home song. Sometimes it is quiet, fearful and made more real when it is your voice against thirty other voices, looking to you for direction. And when you must walk, and drink, and live, and get sick, and laugh, and cry, among other humans, you are forced to leave behind your pride, and live dressed in vulnerability.

Sometimes it is loud, as your deep hurt and your deep love bleed and blend into the mix and the sway of the ever-present river of sound.

Do you remember that book?

The one that you have read so many time you have it memorized. It’s an adventure, it’s a fantasy, its everything that you could ever imagine to be wonderful and wise and worth saying. It’s the memory of so many days of feeling like I couldn’t hold Africa close enough. I never knew what I would see.

Its sometimes simple, two or three words on a page. Large thoughts have little space to breathe. When I washed a dish, all I could do was wash that dish. Whether I danced or sang or cried, it was without thought, and without preamble—it was just a pure expression of a feeling within me. In this way, I was transparent, my feelings out there for all to see.

Sometimes it is a novel, an epic, a rambling poem leaving you with still more to say. It’s you, as you walked under that blue sky, a dome covering all the life within, and you, finally, a perfect part of it. You are Africa. You strain, pushing your feet forward, digging into the sand, holding hands on each side, tip your head back, and are truly still for a few moments, a pure communication coming from your soul to your brain to the sky, shouting and shouting, not with your voice, but with the perfect words of your hands and your skin and your soul, saying—“I feel safe, I feel loved, I feel heavy, I feel burdened, I think I am becoming who I am supposed to be, I think I love this place, I want to be like this always, I want to hold hands like these always, I want to see skies like these always, I am beautiful, I am lost, I am human.”

Keep remembering. Do not forget.

Sometimes, I have taken the path of fear and ease, and not gone to that place of honesty, refusing to know myself, or to know others. I have my worries, my shame, my need to be important, to be enough.

But sometimes I have chosen to sing. To wake up with the roosters. To walk with the children. To speak and act and breath in deep the bright blue sky of Zambia, heart of my heart, the echo of who my very self would be if I could be laid out as clean and plan as a red dirt road.

And then one day, you will wake up, and it, those words, that feeling, will have become the song that goes:

It’s gonna take a lot to drag me away from you
There’s nothing that a hundred men or more could ever do
I bless the rains down in Africa

Hurry boy, she’s waiting there for you.

You will be walking there soon. Do not be afraid. You will have your own dreams there, ones that I will only be able to imagine. You will sing your own songs there, and they will be more beautiful than anything I have ever heard. And you will write the words to your own story, let go of your own fear, your own shame, and experience your own tumbling moments beneath the sky.

And someday, all too soon, we will get coffee. And I will ask you how Africa was. And you will laugh and stutter and try to put it to words. And you will not be able too. But what you say will remind me of a dream that I had once. And that will allow us to keep singing.

Kisu mwane.

Lucy Balwin, Zambezi, 2013

It’s been eleven months since the last Gonzaga “Zam Fam” left our community in Zambezi, and there is rarely a day when thoughts and memories of the lessons don’t cross our minds.  The cohort from 2013 has gathered on numerous occasions over the past year to reflect, laugh and give voice to the stories we heard during our journey.

One of the strengths of this program is that the relationship with Zambezi continues, year after year.  We are now preparing for another group, 19 undergraduates and three faculty, to depart to Zambia on May 12th.  If you are in Spokane, please join us for our missioning service next Monday, May 5th at 4pm in the Gonzaga University Chapel.  We will be blessing and sending out our students for the work and learning that is grounded in our Jesuit ideals.  Whether your an alum of the program, a family member, or a friendly follower of Gonzaga-in-Zambezi, we welcome you to this time together.

Stay tuned for reflections on our journey, beginning on May 12th.

Just as the planes circled the Zambezi sky twenty days ago, once again a series of six seater planes buzzed overhead. These planes are some of the only ones that circle the Zambezi sky the whole year, highlighting to the community both Gonzaga’s arrival and departure. After our short twenty days here the runway is no longer filled with strangers but friends. They are not here to greet us, or to see what we might bring, but to say final goodbyes and a thank you. The success of our trip on this community can be directly correlated to the number and type of people out on that airstrip. This is not measured by what we have physically created, but by the relationships we have built. The runway was not only dominated by children, but also numerous business and community leaders. They came when they saw and heard the planes, not because of a handout that they had received, but because of the relationships and the educational opportunities which they had experienced during our time together.

Hello family and Gonzaga-in-Zambezi followers,

We have all arrived safely in Livingstone and have turned the page on our Zambezi chapter of this Zambian novel.  After three incredible growth-filled weeks with the Zambezi community, it was difficult to say goodbye to friendships, new and old.  We have worked hard each day to provide health lessons, leadership courses, computer classes, and a school literacy program with our partners.  During our final week in Zambezi, I heard from many Zambians, in the church and throughout the community, about how much they appreciated the opportunity to learn with our Gonzaga students.  As Sandu, a man who biked three hours from his home to attend leadership lessons, said to our students at the completion of their course, “we give special thanks to you: we believe knowledge is the weapon to success in life”.

Parents, you should be very proud of your son or daughter in this program.  They have been a thoughtful group, entering into the struggles this program offers with grace and intentionality.  They have asked each other the difficult questions, danced until it hurts, laughed with deep joy, and supported each other through tears.  The relationships they have formed will be remembered in Zambezi, and they live like a family, a Zam Fam.  I could not ask for any more.

When spending time in Zambezi, I often think of Mother Teresa’s words, “we can do no great things –only small things, with great love.”  While students have wrestled with questions about their impact on the Zambezi community, I take comfort in the “small things done with great love” that Gonzaga has worked alongside with the Zambezi community over the past seven years. As you probably figured out by now, we did not eradicate poverty in the Zambezi district, or feed each hungry family we encountered.  Besides a school library we are building in partnership with the Chilena Basic School and a house the church rents out, Gonzaga has not left “tangible” buildings (great things) in this community.   However, I am proud of the work that was accomplished this year by your Gonzaga student, and you would be hard pressed to find a Zambian who has encountered this group who would not greet you, then offer a kind example of their relationship with Gonzaga.

I have been thinking a lot about the access to information and education that those of us in the U.S. have been privileged to experience.  If we have a question about the world, many of us can reach into our pockets, pull out our smart phones and search for the answer.  If we are feeling really clever (or lazy) we can even ask Siri to search for us: “Siri, what is the capital of Nebraska?”  If we want to develop a new skill or seek new knowledge, we can enroll in a university course, research at a local library, or seek professional development.  However, for many Zambians, particularly those in the Zambezi district, the opportunity to learn is unattainable because of the lack of educational opportunities.  Many intelligent, motivated Zambians are hungry for the opportunity to learn, and have come to look forward to the courses that Gonzaga students provide.  Often, these three-week courses have been the spark to start new businesses (Henrix’s brick company, Chansa’s shop, Julius’ citrus farm, Mary’s tailoring) or community development (Julius’ community school, Mama Love’s NGO).  We empower these inspiring Zambians to take the next step to make their community better, to stand on their own two feet. These small things, done with great love can make a difference. Sure, it’s an imperfect relationship at times, but it is a relationship.  As Aaron Ausland reminds us, “friendship, real and deep, in the foundation of giving that empowers.”

I wanted to conclude by introducing you to a couple of our close friends in Zambezi, relationships that inspire the Gonzaga community.  John Mwewa is the retired headmaster of Chilena Basic School.  If you buy some Zambia Gold honey, you are supporting Chilena’s education and the library they are constructing.  John was instrumental in forming this partnership with Gonzaga University.  John and his wife, Winfrieda, have hosted Gonzaga students in homestays and as a member of the Catholic Church council, John is one of the first people to welcome our students.  While John has participated in the leadership and sustainability course in past years, I was inspired to see this 60-something man enroll for the advanced computer lessons course this year.  John shared with me that he felt a little awkward about being about 35 years older than many students.  However, he said that he was curious about computers and couldn’t pass up the opportunity to learn.  Our computer teachers (Shaun, Conner & Nate) said he was a fantastic and joyful student, and I loved when he showed up to our “graduation” from the course wearing his academic gown.

You have surely heard about the hardest working Zambian woman I know, Mama Kawatu.  As our cultural guide, cook and Lunda instructor, I would challenge anyone to walk in the shoes of Mama for a day and not be inspired and humbled.  She becomes our “African mama” for the program providing nourishment, love, and wisdom to twenty students and faculty while caring for her own seven children, running a knitting business, and serving on church committees.  Through her work with Gonzaga, Mama Kawatu has assisted her husband in building a home, (with new metal roof coming this week), a knitting room, and provided running water to her home.  She remembers and asks about students from the past seven years of our program, and considers herself a Zag.  Mama Kawatu has provided a tangible example for us all about what it means to be a servant leader.

So, tomorrow will bring Victoria Falls and exploring Livingstone.  On Friday, we start off for Botswana and our safari.  I’m not sure we will have time to blog, but we will check in before leaving for Lusaka.

My sincere thanks to all parents and families for supporting your children’s dreams and curiosities about the world.  I read an interesting quote today that I believe speaks to the power of our travel experience and the growth each of us are experiencing and will be processing in the weeks and months ahead.

“for if every true love affair can feel like a journey to a foreign country, where you can’t quite speak the language, and you don’t know where you are going, and you’re pulled ever deeper into the inviting darkness, every trip to a foreign country can be a love affair, where you’re left puzzling over who you are and whom you’ve fallen in love with….All good trips are, like love, about being carried out of yourself and deposited into the midst of terror and wonder.” – Pico Iyer

“Dr. Joshua” Armstrong, Gonzaga University

Comprehensive Leadership Program (CLP)

Greetings from Zambezi!

I feel honored to have a chance to write on this blog and tell you how blessed I have been to have met all your loved ones. They are all amazing, young individuals that I have been proud to work alongside with. I had only met the students on Skype once before this trip and after these few weeks together I can say I have 17 new wonderful friends. I have learned so much from my Zam Fam and have truly enjoyed growing with this family. Not only have I grown individually as a nurse here, I have watched my health care team grow and I am extremely excited to see where they go in the world of medicine and see where each and everyone of my new family members go individually. All your posts on the blog have been inspiring and yes every parent out there should be extremely proud of their son or daughter, because I know I am!

Last Sunday Father Noel ended mass with a few thought provoking words. He discussed how both the community and Gonzaga have experienced both positives and negatives from our trip here in Zambezi. In life we take both the positives and the negative experiences to help us grow. For me, the negative experiences in life have helped me grow as a person more often then the positive ones. This same concept has applied to this trip and particularly one of first conversations I experienced in Zambezi. This conversation was with a women from the HIV/ AIDS support group. We had been talking about how cute this little african boy was and she just came out and said “she had an infant die last week.” I was shocked, taken off guard and unsure how to respond. It was at this time it hit me… I AM IN AFRICA. As I started to give my condolences and express my sympathy the conversation shifted. In a matter of seconds she had changed the subject. This comment of hers has been unsettling and I have found it hard to comprehend and process. As a nurse back home the topic of death is something we skirt around. As I sat and compared my culture to theirs, it had me thinking about experiences I had in the hospital with patients dying. How my first death on the cardiac floor was hard to handle, but as I continued to have exposure and experience I started to become better at letting go and grieving in a healthy manner. This continual exposure to death is what I feel has happened in Africa. The topic of death is something that happens everyday. It is the unfortunate image I pictured when I thought of Africa and the sad reality of the hardships here; however, there is always a positive and the unexpected of all the sad talk is the way people handle the situation. People here are able to grieve, but try to focus more on the good. They live in the moment and do not obsess about the future. They still smile and dance and truly know the importance of the here and now. This is what makes a great servant leader. Someone who listens and is present. It is what we are all striving to do each and everyday here in Zambezi and throughout our lives. As much as I can bring to Africa and teach to the community and to those on my healthcare team, I truly feel we have grown and learned as much from the individuals here as they have learned from us. “At the end of the day, you can either focus on what’s tearing you apart, or what’s holding you together.”

As we leave our new home in Zambezi after being emotional and physically tested I hope we all remember Father Noel’s words “you have left us at a better level” and take this to heart knowing we have made a difference. We have all struggled with the questions of what are we leaving? Did we really make a difference? Did we make a change? I feel we will continually ask these questions as we embark on our next journey, but I feel we can leave knowing we did leave them in a better place. I can see it in the health care workers, the children and different community members we have met and taught. The huge turn out in our women’s cooking class (Above photo). The individuals who are so proud of their new computers skills. The community members who have been empowered by the leadership team to go make a change in their own community. The children who are proud to read and share their stories they learned to write with the literacy group and the relationships and long lasting friendships we have all made. What we have left will only continue to grow. We have all had our hearts torn, but what is holding us together is our friendships and memories. We have left our footprints in the Zambezi sand and had our hearts tattooed with the stories and faces of our new family here in Zambezi. I know each and everyone of us will continue to grow from this experience as we relive Zambezi in the pictures we bring home, the stories we tell our family and friends, the times we reflect on our own, the songs that bring back the memories and faces of our Zag/Coug Zam Fam.

We are off to Livingstone tomorrow and the thought of leaving Zambezi and my new family and friends here is bitter sweet. It is always hard saying goodbye and leaving a place the has truly touched your heart. I know we are all excited for another adventure in Africa, but as we board the bush planes tomorrow we will be glad to have one another and for the extra time together to cry, laugh, and reflect on our time here and start to transition our way back home.

Shelenu mwani,

Brittany

P.S. I love you Mom, Dad and Ben. Give Sophie a big kiss for me! Miss you all very much. It will be nice to FaceTime again.

P.P.S. Marji and Brown Family Nate says hello and he loves you all!